Throughout this move, I have learned a wealth of information. And I have shared it all with you.
Thank you for accepting my honesty, and for seeing what lies beneath the masks and behind the walls.
I hope I have inspired all of you to live more authentically, and I hope that you are taking off your masks and tearing down the walls as well.
I appreciate all of your kind words, as I have struggled with the direction my writing should take. Your encouragement has meant a lot to me.
So much to me, in fact, that I have been seeking it out, rather than breaking forth into the “real” world, as I have said I would. I have been hiding in this safe community, desperately seeking what it can no longer give me.
It’s time for the praise, the kind words, and the encouragement to come from within.
Recently, I had a wake-up call when I developed a ridiculous amount of skin hives all over my body. I was diagnosed with an unexplainable, likely stress-related inflammatory condition, and the doctor was recommending oral steroids. I negotiated down to a cream, but I do realize that by not managing stress, not taking care of myself, and not dealing with what needs to be dealt with, I am harming my body, as well as my mind. I know that stress can do much worse than this, and that my physical and mental health depend on my restoring the balance.
I will keep writing. I’m working on my book, albeit a bit behind schedule. And I will go forward with the Advent Calendar. I will continue to give two away each day, to subscribers (selected using a random number generator), until November 17. Then, they will continue to be for sale, for $1.99.
But I am going to take a break from blogging and (most) e-mail, probably until Black Friday. I have talked about such breaks, frequently, but now I see the seriousness of my situation. I see how being constantly plugged in has increased, rather than decreased, my stress level. I see how I have been seeking approval for myself, rather than truly sharing my life lessons.
I will be back, and I will have a lot to share with all of you. Don’t worry about that.
But, in the meantime, please spend most of your days away from that screen. The answers are not online.