Milagro

Two days ago, the teacher next door to me brought in a coffee maker.  We placed it in a lifeskills room, and donated all kinds of hazelnut, organic, and fair-trade goodness to the collective.

Then, we sipped from our mugs, savoring the aromatic goodness, during morning hall duty.  “I learned a new Spanish word,” one teacher said, holding her mug near her face.  “Milagro.  It means ‘miracle.'”

I smiled and raised my mug toward hers, “Milagro,” I repeated.

And in this sixth week of my new life, in Houston, milagro does seem to be an appropriate descriptor.

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After a period of adjustment, of feeling overwhelmed, I realized that I had carried a number of my old fears and habits with me.  I did what it took to survive in my old environment, and I did what it took to get out.

It took strength to do that, and that strength will serve me well here, if I get rid of the rest of the garbage.

There is no longer a need to focus on survival, to be defensive and isolated.  I’ve learned the lessons of the past.  It is time to focus on what is, not on what was.

And in making that change, milagro does become the fitting term.

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In letting go, I have been able to notice my wonderfully supportive and delightful co-workers and team members.

In letting go, I have been able to notice my delightful (and often comical–as only young teens can be) students.

In letting go, I have been able to notice the bright sunny days, and to let the rays warm my soul.

In letting go, I have been able to enjoy evening walks and conversations on the balcony (complete with the two palm trees we recently purchased!).

In letting go, I am seeing more opportunities to show love and compassion, than I ever imagined were possible.

In letting go, I am able to enjoy afternoon swims with my daughter, joyful nights meeting new friends, and find meaning in things that I had previously overlooked.

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Is there something holding you back, that you need to release?  Imagine how remarkable your life could become, if you chose to let go.

It truly is milagro.

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13 thoughts on “Milagro

  1. This is beautiful. I love the photo of your daughter in front of the Texas Statue 🙂
    I am glad you are finding happiness in your new home.
    I need to let go of meeting the expectations of others, and caring what others think. I try to also let go of my negative feelings and judgments daily, by acknowledging them and sending them off. Quiet time in prayer/meditation facilitates this well.
    Katie

    • Yes, yes, yes…I think other people mean well, but they misunderstand. So I tell myself that they love me and want me to be happy–they just don’t understand that my path to happiness is different from theirs.

      Not judging is something I struggle with as well. I’ve gotten better at not judging others, but now I have to work on not judging myself, and life in general. I try to handle it the same way you do, just sitting with with negative thoughts and emotions, acknowledging them, and ultimately letting them go. It definitely is a process, and letting go of my perfectionism about the process, has been a huge part of it.

  2. Loved this post. “Is there something holding you back, that you need to release?” I’ve been working on that one quite a bit lately. I have let go of so very much in the last 3 1/2 years but there is still something that is keeping me from letting my illness go. It will take a bit more excavation. I love how you look at things. You chose to be happy.

  3. Letting go, what a list I could make with those two words to explain how I got where I am. When we hold on to what doesn’t work, allow ourselves to be stuck in a situation that isn’t right, we do so out of fear. By letting go, you have faced fear and won. I am so proud of your milagro.

  4. I am going through a divorce after 32 years of marriage and believe me there is lots to let go of. I joined a support group and one of the counselors told me something I will never forget. “We have no control over what other people think of us, we can only control our reaction to it.” With these words came a peace that I haven’t felt in a long time. I will no longer react negatively to what people say about me.

    • It takes a LOT of strength to do that, dusty. I’ve just begun to stop seeking my self-worth from the outside, and I would love to get to the point where I no longer internalized negative things people said about me. Good for you, for being able to make that step!

  5. Bethany, your post is inspiring- thank you. I want to welcome you to Texas (I don’t know how long you’ve been here, but it’s never to late to say Welcome, is it?), and for coming over and joining us for Let’s Get Social Sunday! I am glad to see that you are a part of Texas Women Bloggers, too!

    I love the word milagro, and I love miracles. I notice that they happen much more frequently than we probably think that they do…and it sounds as if you have been enveloped in them lately. Beautiful.

    Many things you touched on resonated with me, and I have (again) been pondering “they just don’t understand that my path to happiness is different from theirs” in the past few days. And one of your responses to a comment (above): “It really does amaze me, how many destructive things we do, out of fear”…so true. What do you suppose is the antidote to fear, or maybe I should say, what do you suppose is the thing that would disarm fear, neutralize it, make it powerless….that would cause it to turn to powder and blow harmlessly away? I think for me it would be love.

    Well, as you can tell, your post has been quite thought-provoking, and I thank you for that. I look forward to more of your work. 🙂

    Love, Joy
    Yesterfood

    • Welcome aboard, Joy! 🙂

      We’ve been in Texas since Aug 1, so we are still pretty new here! Houston is a far cry from our two traffic light town in northern Michigan, where we lived all of our lives. It was a dark winter that led to the miracle of our daily life here–proof that the greatest miracles often arise out of the most difficult times.

      I would say that love can definitely go a long way toward conquering fear. During the difficult times this winter, I was shown such great love and compassion, and I know that is what made the difference in the outcome of the situation. (This is kind of my topic for Tuesday’s post).

  6. I like that word, milagro. I didn’t know it meant miracle. It takes a miracle sometimes in learning the lessons of letting go. When you finally learn it’s life changing.

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